It's my addiction,
Please leave me alone.
My soul's affliction,
Please be gone.
I know his beginning,
I know his end.
He is my enemy,
He is my friend.
How can I be so weak,
Part of my character.
I'm in a play; yes--
I'm the actor.
The brave soul,
In a life and death struggle--
I win sometimes for years,
Then burst the bubble.
I've thrown him out,
Then a knock at the door.
I know that it's death,
Somehow I want more.
He enters my life...
Then comes disaster.
He starts slowly...
Then he moves faster.
The real life--
The good life--
It's what I strive for,
But while I am there it's only humanity's gore.
So I struggle and struggle.
No peace to my heart there,
Again he knocks, a lie.
"You know that I care".
The bills, the kids, love grown old.
The War, lack of peace, I am lost...Oh my soul!
The pressure grows daily, the tide flows in.
He knocks at my door, then he is in.
We say hello, we embrace-- old friends.
We share good times; we share a sad end.
The night is so beautiful--but soon comes the dawn.
A wonderful kiss; then death's arms.
The light trickles in-- reality there.
I kick him out -- an oath I swear.
I will fight a good fight;
I know I can't win.
I tell myself,
I will not give in.
The bills, the hopes, and dreams not realized.
My life, my blood, time passes by.
A curtain lifted--
Another act to play.
Fight the same battles,
Live one more day.
It's my addiction,
Please leave me alone.
My soul's affliction;
Please be gone.
I know his beginning,
I know his end.
He is my enemy,
He is my friend.
